i decided to revive this blog again.
after things from the past came to visit.

the reason why i even created this blog at the very beginning
was for someone to HOPEFULLY see the transition
that was taking place in me.

for the past few years
it hasnt been really taking place.
i DID change
but not because of anyone in particular
it was more of through time
and more of the circumstances, environment

but.
things have changed
or im not sure whether they have.
maybe its me thinking too much
maybe its me letting my thoughts wander.

i feel guilty.
after how events transpire this morning.
i don't know whether its the right thing
but i know that i dont have control over what she wants to do.

i dont know whether i still love
or even like her anymore.
im confused to be honest.
and to further add on to this confusion,
there's this girl who recently came into my life.
and give it such a spin
such a twist.
that a part of me tells me that she could be the one for me already.

but in my life.
never do i get the things i want/desire that easily.
it somehow has to be more complicated
more complex.

5201314?
To who? And whether its worth me investing my all.
Hopefully time will tell.